Oscar’s and college dormitory heartbreak
It was the worst love experience that I have had. When I was still young in college, I was living in the college dormitory. I met a boy in another class, we were living at the same floor. I didn’t know him well, but when I saw him at my first sight, I fell into him already. I thought he felt the same way too as he treated me so good. And one night, we were doing revision together and he asked me if I would like to be together with him. That’s how we started.
We even talked about our future plan… so young and naive that I would believe that we were destined.
The first month was the honey moon. We held hands on ferry, kissing at the back stairs, seeing each other’s roommates and friends, sleeping and cuddling on bed. We even talked about our future plan… so young and naive that I would believe that we were destined. He made so many promises, and that’s why I hate that so much after we broke up. (I don’t like people make promises so easily and cannot accomplish).
I knew that he got an ex boy friend right before our relationship started. I heard things about them in the past and he told me the truth too. But not the whole truth that he was still in love with his ex. His ex just lived one floor above actually. I did believe in him when he told me they were totally over. Sometimes we went to the study room, his ex bumped into us. In that situation, he would just take my hand and left his ex alone.
“I m outside your room now, can we just talk?” (stupid, what was I thinking?)
2 months passed away. Gradually, I felt something was not right. Every time I texted him on messengers he did not reply, and changed to the “away” status. He refused to sleep together as he said he have to focus on his study. But when I said I made supper for him,he would still let me deliver to his room. Yet, he would not let me stay for long. I was so worried and finally reached a point of outbreak. I texted him so many time, asking “what happened?” “why are you upset?” “Did I do anything wrong?” And later become “I am sorry… I would behave myself more” I even went to his room and texted “I m outside your room now, can we just talk?” (stupid, what was I thinking?). He finally answered the door and said “omg, you totally freaked me out! I’m so scared of you, may you leave?)
Heartbroken and obviously, that’s the end of our relationship.
I could felt like pins in my stomach. We were still living in the same building, it’s difficult to avoid of escape, especially in elevator.
What so convenient was, he’s then back to be with his ex again shortly. I saw they were holding hands in dormitory. My roommate told me he was just making use of me to make his bf jealous, as they got into a fight, but never broken up. I don’t know if this is true or not and I didn’t want to believe in it. In the following two years, every time (my turn) I bumped into them, I could felt like pins in my stomach. We were still living in the same building, it’s difficult to avoid or escape, especially in elevator.
I moved out after since … I was thinking only if I become the bad person in the relationship, it can protect myself from getting hurt in it. But of course this is not right. If I keep thinking in this way, I could never have a healthy relationship. No true love. Because all this faking, cheating could distract someone from getting to know who you really are. But I would still got my amours on. Who don’t want to leave a cool impression to the one they like?
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Dale’s Online Suspicions
We were just new at that time and I was still young. The first time I caught him when he was on the social site called guys4men.com (I dun’t know if it still exist until now). My instinct was telling me to check my bf and also telling me to create an account there. (Btw never doubt on your instincts.) When I message my bf he said he was busy cleaning, doing his laundry and I believed him so. But when I was already inside the site in the chat room I saw him flirting and doing a live show in chat room showing his everything to everyone.
What made me even more shocked was when he was inviting one guy from chat room to have fun at his place.
I was so shock! and could not believe anything I just saw. What made me even more shocked was when he was inviting one guy from chat room to have fun at his place. It was painful and I just left the site crying. Next day still the same my instinct tells me to go to the site again and this time I made a dummy account to chat to my him. He wants me to go to his place and have fun. To my dismay I just logged out and went home. I didn’t confront him because I was afraid what he will say.
It’s like a scene in a movie, I had to keep myself calm and holding my tears.
Finally, the ultimate day came, when I caught him having sex with a guy and even more shocking he was being fucked. It was a surprise visit since I know it was his day off and also mine. When I reached his apartment, I went to his room and when I opened the door and what I saw was him being fucked by a guy. Both of them were shock and stop what they were doing. It’s like a scene in a movie, I had to keep myself calm and holding my tears. I left and rushed to get a taxi home and cried. It’s painful what happened and it was so hard. You can’t even retain the relationship afterwards. The trust was lost and even doubting yourself why he did that.
Maybe something is lacking or missing in you, that’s why he did that. It’s been weeks afterward, when he messaged me and asking for forgiveness. I asked the reason why he did it and what he said to me that I was far away and he can’t stand without someone beside him. (I was living outside of Manila and he was working in Manila that time.) I can’t forgive him that time. It took me years to forgive him and be friends with him. It also took me number of years to trust someone and be in relationship.
I think gays are always looking for something new, something exciting that their relationship can’t offer.
Everyone are polygamous, it’s a human being. I think gays are always looking for something new, something exciting that their relationship can’t offer. That’s why most of gay relationship status are open type. Which is I believe it won’t work and won’t last. In going a relationship, you should accept what both of you have and content on it. Don’t look for anything that your partner is lacking of. If you really love him, you should accept it for who he really is.
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Hurt The Movie
Today Hurt the short film launches on YouTube. Staring two InstaFamous first time actors Clarence Lee (as Chris) and Lokies Khan (as Jonathan) playing the confused and heartbroken lovers. The beautifully shot feature gives a glimpse into the couple’s life and the repercussions of one’s mistakes.
Cast & Crew
Clarence Lee (as Chris) and Lokies Khan (as Jonathan)
Written and Directed by Kieran Cheang
Executive Produced and Co-Directed by David Liu (Team David Films)
Director of Photography David Liu
Music and Sound Design by Eric Wong (United Records)
Featuring Original Single “Paradise” by Joshua Simon
“Paradise” Produced at Zendyll Productions by Jon Chua (The Sam Willows) and Evan Low (Inch Chua)